Friday, May 09, 2025

Too old to even care.

In the last week I have been attacked on a SwapShop post by someone who says that I am ALWAYS rude in posts on the site and that i need to consult with someone to make sure that my comments are not rude before i post them. i did a search on my name and tried to figure out what the HELL she was talking about but couldnt find anything that anyone could possibly find rude. but then i realized what if anything she might have seen and taken offense to. Someone had posted Corgi puppies for sale. I asked if the parents had breed specific genetic testing. He replied that he didn't find it necessary. i replied that I DID find it necessary, as my friend lost her pup to a genetic disease that the parents should have neen tested for. So no sale. i guess that must be rude. i don't think i will be changing anytime soon. people are so weird now. maybe they always were, but i didn't notice because I wasn't going through time alone and didn't have time to think about it. i have nothing but time now though, although I spend more time driving around than I ever planned. My niece got tired of my mother living in her house and threw her out even though promises were made that zmom could stay in her home if only she would sell the property to them. So my sister moved Mom out to the ranch. Then decided that Mom couldnt drive anymore. I was informed, finally, about all of this because it was decided that Mom would be taken to lunch at the senior center twice a week and that I would be responsible for taking her back to the ranch. i also find myself responsible for taking her to all her other appointments, i. e. haircut, dentist, doctor, dollar general, eye doctor, Pharmacy, candy stockup, etc. Anyway, it takes up 3 or 4 days a week and the impact is definitely felt. i do want to help Mom's quality of life but feels overwhelming sometimes. When am i supposed to take care of my own needs? i have even reluctantly decided against a veggie garden this year because I just don't have the energy. And yes, I know that produce from the store will be super-expensive until we get rid of Felon47. I will contribute to my mothers life and health as long as possible. It's not her fault that my sister needs to control everything and everyone, even to the extent of dishonesty.